It’s like drowning but you just won’t fucking die."
yeah i really don’t mind if i just drop dead tbh it needs to happen already
Dating seems so scary like you’re willingly giving the power to destroy you to someone you’re letting all your guards down and letting someone do whatever they want to you on so many different levels
I haven’t written to you in a while because I have been so busy: work, family, friends. I do this to avoid feeling lonely though. The less time I have to myself, the less time I have to contemplate how lonely I am.
Another year has gone by. In an instant, it’s December already. The holiday season. The season of giving. The season of goodwill. Joy and love is in the air, and Christmas lights are to be seen everywhere.
However, where joy is found, sadness coexists. I am sad. I’m seeing love everywhere and I’m envious. I try not to be but who am I to deny my own feelings?
Don’t get me wrong, the past few months have been amazing but for once, just once, I just wish love would stop evading me.
I know these feelings of loneliness and emptiness are fleeting though. I know they will dissipate by tomorrow morning or by the 1st of January, 2014. Oh on that note, I should mention that I think 2014 will be my year.